Xiǎomǐ’s mother was under the impression that they were in a relationship, and they were out of their minds. Every day at home worshiping guānyīn, hoping Xīfān to be able to conceive accidentally and the both of them will get married, from then on his son’s life is complete.
Xīfān thought, ‘the Bodhisattva must be in a dilemma’ she couldn’t tell Xiǎomǐ’s mother: “to complete this heavy responsibility, your son must first learn not to waste sperm on other men.” Also can’t persuade Xiǎomǐ to think of a woman as an emotional option.
She covers up her sexuality for Xiǎomǐ, and Xiǎomǐ plays her boyfriend when she “has temporary needs”. What is known to be “temporary needs”?
Just like yesterday, Cài Yǔtáng got married.
The earth is not small but also not big, but it is very strange for people to run into. Some people say that it is called fate, and some people say that it is called destiny.
She never thought that after many years, Cài Yǔtáng’s brother transferred to the pharmaceutical company where she worked and became her subordinate.
Cài Yǔhuá is a young magnificent boy. Xīfān has no reason not to care for him she is even controlled by pride. In order to express her generosity and to have no grudge at heart, she took care of him everywhere. As a result, she became aware from his mouth that Cài Yǔtáng is getting married and received an invitation.
When Cài Yǔhuá handed the invitation to her he said: “Eldest brother said Xīfān is a very important woman in his life, if we’re not for the support of Xīfān maybe he can’t even graduate from college. Eldest brother wishes to obtain your blessing”.
This sentence made her feel particularly sarcastic. ‘She’s a very important woman in his life. But not the most important woman, right?’ He obtained love from her, obtained wholeheartedly, and yet she was treated like a garbage and still wants to get her blessing? Is he too naïve or too greedy?
The number of OS in her mind is numerous, and yet her pride in not willing to admit defeat finally decided to attend the wedding reception.
In order to give the impression that she was not sad and even deliberately showing that life is better than him, she spent money on the whole body maintenance, spend three hours to put on make-up. And then wear expensive Chanel clothes, with a tailored fit, to display one’s figure and to obtain a great advantage. Xiǎomǐ saw and even mistakenly thinking she wants to seduce the groom and then wreck the wedding ceremony.
She didn’t intend to, but her looks and graceful manner, she did attract more than half of the men’s eyes.
Cài Yǔtáng is a humorous man. He joked: “At that time I was young and ignorant, now I know what I miss”.
She showed a perfect smile, alienated and politely said: “You and the bride are suited for each other.”
When she said this sentence, she deliberately raised her chin and she visited the bride intentionally and she told herself: “Hán Xīfān, you won!”
This is a perfect performance, if the wedding banquet is a battlefield, she long ago seize a total victory but she is not at all happy.
Why? she ought to be proud of oneself, she is like a proud queen patrolling the battlefield. She gained the envy of countless men and women, but…so what? Like a bird sticking to Cài Yǔtáng besides the giggles and happiness, is the bride, not her Han Xīfān.
At the moment, she clearly saw herself alone from the eyes of Cài Yǔtáng.
Leaving the wedding banquet she went to the bar to get drunk, the many years of social interaction and she have strong liquor tolerance, besides there was Xiǎomǐ at her side she had the guts to drink openly.
No, she remembered Xiǎomǐ’s mother blood pressure was high and was sent to the emergency room, before Xiǎomǐ left he constantly warned her by all means not to drink too much, and important to remember to call a taxi home.
That’s right, Xiǎomǐ’s not here she should be restrained, but last night…….
A headache was so severe her ears were buzzing and screaming, such as countless honeybees were existing in her head making her unable to stand to hold her fist and to knock her head. Xīfān tried to remember what happened last night, however, the result was not good once again she knocks her head a few more times squeeze her eyebrows and twitch her mouth, atlas some fragments of pictures flashed on her mind.
Xiǎomǐ left, his father called him off.
She reminded herself that she must be moderate that Xiǎomǐ can’t drive while intoxicated, but her mind is empty. Like someone who has been digging through, feeling quite uncomfortable, like there is someone who poured into her chest a bowl called loneliness, to be strong corrosive thick soup to let her rough eye, rough mouth, difficult to understand one’s lifetime.
She likes sweets and not like the bitter flavor, therefore she doused the bitter taste with a cup of strong alcohol.
Is she pouring too hard? she was lying on the bar, start smiling at everyone, raising a toast to everyone. After that….there is none after that…
A burst of cold chestnut suddenly passes through the bottom of her heart. Xīfān all over became quick-witted, completely awake!
Although her head and throat still ache, yet she must be quick to figure where she is.
rubbing her eyes, the sky just barely dawns the light in the room is somewhat dim, and she opened her eyes to look all around.
this room…….mud house?
This type of house can we be able to find in Taipei? This type of house can only be found in the Palace Museum, in the Forbidden City?
wrong, the Forbidden City, it ought to be the Chinese culture city.
The floor of the house is made of mud and brick with a thick layer of dust almost covering its original appearance. The house was wide, but the furniture was rough and shabby.
In the middle of the room there exist a square table, four long wooden benches. The workmanship was primitive incapable to visualize, on the left side of the wall exist a big cupboard the bed is also made of clay, a large one. there exist a trunk on the bedside. It’s the only furniture in the room that you can see.
‘To sleep in this mud bed till dawn, how can bones not be broken? last night…..what happened in the end? why would she wake up here? a bad feeling arises in her heart. No way, did she died?’
‘it won’t do, she has to check. How can she use a one-night stand to bless her first love? Impossible, just one night the sadness of loneliness forced her to evolve rapidly and to become a new age food and drink for men and women?’
Narrowing her eyes, she is staring at the front house there was a window a slight light penetrated through the window to come in and saw a platform, next to the platform is……what is that? heavens! it’s that the ancient women cooking stove? old pot and crappy bowl, broken wooden ladle, in addition, two, three large water jar as well as…..that thing may be called a cupboard?
She took a hard breath, puzzled and didn’t know where she was, suddenly, Her gaze was instantly fixed to the man on the other side.
He is not a man….NO, the correct way to say is “modern man”
His hair is worn in a bun like a man in ancient costume, dress in an ancient man satin dress, his eyes and 4/5 of the nose is covered with a strip of cloth, exposing a round chin.
She is not good at recognizing other peoples facial features, The same face has to be watched several times before she remembers, even if barely enough to remember and if i don’t see the other party for a while it will be completely forgotten.
This problem is a big injury to the business people, but fortunately, she has many 3C products¹ to help. And there is also Xiǎomǐ’s brain to substitute for her.
The topic is far away, what she’s saying is, even if she is blind, she can’t regard the other person as an ancient man.
‘Therefore what’s going on here? Does she have a hang-over?’
Covering her eyes, taking ten deep breaths, she needs a large amount of oxygen to awaken her brain nerves.
She’s insane, it must be the alcohol causing intellect to decrease, èn that’s right! she lowered her head and saw from the stitches between her fingers…….oneself’s clothes.
Suddenly, she opened her eyes wide, wow! she quickly opened her hands and rubbed her sleepy eyes vigorously.
Her undulated proud chest, why overnight turned to into a flat chest, is she too intoxicated to sign a breast reduction surgery?
However without the chest also legs, her pair of stockings every day to maintain the slender long legs, why turn into two short matchsticks?
Furthermore, what is she wearing? where’s her Chanel dress? what about her six-inch heel? How is it possible to change into a cyan cotton jacket and…..embroidered shoes?
Please! her one’s lifetime is to be the leading female role, never before run past dragon designs alright?
In an intense shock, Xīfān touched her cheek and examined her hand and foot, this, this, this….this is not her body!
Crystal nails are gone, pretty mèimei’s² hairstyle change into a long hair shawl and the tattoo on the elbow disappeared….will a city fashionable woman turn into a small village girl? what does this teach her how can this be endured?
What the hell happened, who’s going to tell her!
Xīfān suddenly turned her head to her side and stare at the man. She saw the man had a cloth tied to his forehead but have not seen directly tied to the eyes. Is this some kind of fashion or did he injured his eye? or she…..fell into a strange time and place?
“You…who is it?” Xīfān frowned and asked the other person and at the same time she increased her distance from each other. Anyway, the bed is big enough to pat, “roll it! boy”
seeing no reaction from the other side, her brows wrinkled deeper. Is he still sleeping?
He is so big, is he still sleeping? did he take LSD?
Xīfān pushed him hard and pushed him three or four times in a row, he finally reacted. But his reaction was actually to stretch his hands and sway a few times in mid-air and his mouth made short boo hoo sound.
What he wanted to say was ‘don’t bully me?’ what is this ghost reaction?
Xīfān stretches her foot to him and kicked him on the body twice but seeing his reaction exactly the same, does he have no reaction? it must have hurt but not speak? No…..no an idea arises she somewhat felt afraid.
“Please scold me you must not be dumb ah let speak a few words ok? do you just wave? do you think you are the president”?
Xīfān is more anxious, her heart was beating fast wants to jump out of her throat. Her body was already feeling uncomfortable she strongly needs someone to tell her where it is, what is the situation now? She can’t be ignorant of the situation now.
But the man still doesn’t want to speak, she pushed him once again but he still continued the “elect the president’s” wave.
She finally stops touching him and even pulled her distance from him and said to him in a pleading tone “please tell me who are you”? “where is this”?
After no physical contact, he also stops movement.
Xīfān’s heart was alarmed, no way…..her throat was so uncomfortable. Suddenly she exhausted her dāntián³ strength and shouted “ah” and waited for his reaction. But seeing him haven’t the least bit of reaction as if she has a silent device in her throat,
Frustrated and lowered her head, Xīfān was distress, her shoulders collapse in hell, she thought she obtained a few inferences.
inference 1: He’s not responding because he’s not able to hear
inference 2: He doesn’t scold her, he only lets out a boo hoo sound to protest because he can’t speak.
What about the eyes? Xīfān was not polite she stretches her hand out and around three seconds, the gray cloth on his face was taken away by her.
this time he had a feeling and became aware and reacted she saw him covering his eyes quite painful and few sounds to express his anger.
Xīfān’s hand tremble more and more and once again her eyes turn around her surrounding then she saw the embroidered shoes she wore on her feet upon clutching her fingers on her cloth and the uneasiness in her heart was thoroughly confirmed. This is not “inference” rather “fact”.
She crossed!
¹short for computers, communications, and consumer electronics
²younger sister/young woman
³point two inches below the navel where one’s qi resides
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