[CHAPTER 1:Beautiful woman to turn into a village girl]
So cold, Han Xifan curled herself into a ripe shrimp shape, her hands are rubbing between her two arms, she has a terrible headache, her throat was sore and she blamed it for drinking too much last night. She was exploring her hand, at one side she touches to the east, then touch to the west, however she felt wasn’t a soft mattress or silk quilt……floor?
She slightly opened her eyes, no way, drunk so badly? to one’s surprise sleeping on the floor, no wonder it feels cold.
Grabbing the hair and climbing on the bed, Xifan whispered to the man on the bed: “Xiǎomǐ go to sleep a little bit.”
Seeing a man sleeping unconsciously and hasn’t reacted, she couldn’t help but think ‘was he drunk too? ugh., pouring a cup of sorrow is not a good way, not clean, instead to have a headache and sore throat.’
She rolled over from the outside of the bed and turned over on the body of a man, she was lying on the wall, and have not forgotten to draw out the quilt from the man, and hiding oneself in.
So cold, the alcohol took a lot of heat from her, fortunately, Xiǎomǐ’s body is very hot she shifts twice her skin sticks to his body also her hands and feet across his chest and waist, temperature automatic control, indeed it’s so comfortable.
She didn’t realize that the man’s body muscles were getting tense, and there was slight noise on the knuckles.
“Xiǎomǐ’……you are indeed nice and warm…”
Just a little closer her cheeks are on his neck. Xīfān is relaxed to assume and getting more sleep for tomorrow is the beginning of another day. Have the right to sleep and wake up naturally.
Xiǎomǐ is not her boyfriend rather her roommate and assistant. He’s very handsome, is 180 cm tall, fair and skin clean, looks refined, the colleague in the restaurant is always chasing after his figure. Xiǎomǐ is diligent willing to learn, a workaholic rarely seen in a younger generation.
She is as old as Xiǎomǐ….No, she is a month and 13 days older than him. As a result, she always forces him to call her “sister”.
But Xiǎomǐ detested calling her sister, everytime she uses her boss identity to force him, he calls her “cold porridge”, Hán Xīfān, cold rice, just like cold porridge.
Actually, this nickname is damn suitable for her, cold porridge….uh-huh, with regards to man, indeed she really is.
Someone once asked her, “Xiǎomǐ gets tired of being with you every day, the circumstances are not bad, for what reason for you not to love him? isn’t it because he is your employee, you can’t see it?”
‘Who have the rights to look down upon who?’ Xiǎomǐ attended the French blue ribbon catering school, much more powerful than the boss of her.
However it’s not because of this reason, that’s why she can’t be with Xiǎomǐ. Why can you sleep in the same bed, to get along 24 hours a day, unable to be a boyfriend and girlfriend?
Is it because she is cold? Is she a lesbian? or perhaps she’s having trouble with love?
Love is a challenging illness…..perhaps right?
She dated her first boyfriend, Cài Yǔtáng for 7 years, three years in high school and four years in college, she was under the impression that both of them will possibly walk into marriage.
After graduating from college, He went to serve in the army and she started to work, everyone says that love is the worst fear of xiǎosān and bīngbiàn¹. As expected I am afraid of what is coming, others mutiny is that their girlfriend run away and yet they are opposite.
During her first visit from the army, she went to see him with his family, she originally planned to prank him and say “What do you do, you’re going to be a father” wanted to see how he reacts, didn’t expect that he will take a quick step–
“Xīfān, let’s break-up, you’re too competent, you absolutely will become a successful woman in the future and I’ll probably be a little civil servant and our worlds will gradually get further apart”.
She froze for a moment, smiled and answered, “today is not April fools day”.
Suddenly, the atmosphere was awkward to the extreme.
Her eyes swept, she finds Cài’s father, Cài’s mother, Cài’s younger sister, Cài’s younger brother face appear ashamed and compassionate, it dawned on her as it turns out this is not a joke it was his sincere deliberation and his family already knew he wanted to break up.
Xīfān thought she would cry, but she did not, arrogance forces her to use the professional tone to her client to say: “since you already made your decision, so that’s it, next time we meet I’ll invite you to a meal.”
She’s was trying to make a deal, not a good one. And after that turned around and walk away, she walked while counting her pace with a lucky thought he would go to the first few steps to catch up from behind himself after holding her, turn around and will say laughingly: “baby you’re scared right?”
But she walked all the way 100 steps, two hundred steps, from the army camp to the outside of the army camp far away he can’t catch up and yet he never came after her.
I don’t know if Cài Yǔtáng’s observation is sharp, or because his words shook up her unyielding nature, then she really became a strong woman.
She worked twelve to sixteen hours a day at the age of twenty-five to become the business manager of a large pharmaceutical factory. She received more than three million bonus year-end dividends, she didn’t quit her job, but at the age of 26 she opened a restaurant, originally the restaurant is small, the location is also ordinary, employees together with herself is five people, but gradually, business becoming more prosperous with each passing day, rented the next door shop to expand the operation, now the current employees are 20. Xiǎomǐ is a good assistant precisely took her place to manage the restaurant – this is an agreement.
After Cài yǔtáng, she has had a few boyfriends but the time of the relationship is getting shorter and shorter. The second two years, the third one year, the fourth even six months have not lasted.
When a man breaks up with her he always says to her, “You are too competent, too clever, you often make me feel inferior”,“there is no possibility that I am not your brother, when you are a strong man”,“you have the foresight to expose into my lies”, “you make me feel insecure”, “you are so sharp”, “you let me feel afraid”….
She has to question herself. The question is whether she’s “smart and capable” or “the man is cheating on her back, she can always detect?”, If a woman wants to maintain a relationship, she can’t wait until marriage to turn a blind eye, but to be reasonably ignorant of a man’s wrong behavior before marriage.?, Whether she should not be excessively clean about love…..
Countless times she began to doubt her own personality let her start to feel inferior ashamed, self-denial.
She asked herself, ‘What does love bring to people?, Why does everyone expect happiness in love? But it’s often painful. Suppose that the end of all love is a tragedy, why permit this scene to begin with.’
Growing older, Xīfān slowly realized, that it’s not anyone’s fault, rather it is people who expect too much from love.
When people are afraid of commitment, scared of investing when they are happy to be loved by the opposite sex at the same time. When they have a strong sense of rejection and fear of the word monotonous, the truth this kind of thing just like to pass through, I’ve heard many people, however, no one experienced it.
This is the era of Chāngmíng², the results of the development of civilization, the information is convenient and fast. Modern people who have a strong demand for fast food culture, of course, the situation that happens. It’s not anybody’s fault, love requires time to slowly cultivate, to brew, to ferment, it requires time to break into two different souls. And time is the most expensive capital that modern people cannot afford. Therefore love has already become a luxury.
Sometimes Xīfān gets together with a couple of good friends, she says: “To test whether a man is responsible, he will know the answer once you slept with him once.”
Because in the morning, the woman with the residual makeup frighten the man to break the table?
No, it is when a man finds out that his younger brother has made another night in the hole, which can make a woman understand, what is the definition of a man’s sense of responsibility?
He wakes up beside you, gets dressed with the lightest action, the smallest movement left, so this sort of “The flowers and leaves are not stained”, men looking for love and responsibility, is tantamount to looking for a mobile phone on the portrait of Kāngxī³, is purely impossible.
If he stays, it depends on whether he prepares breakfast for you, prepares for the next round of war, or thoughtful waiting for you to wake up and whisper warm words in your ear.
To assume the former he says he was quite satisfied with your performance last night, for a restaurant with a bad reputation, men will not mind twice to visit. In the case of the latter…do, this represents true love?
Ha!, don’t be naive! If the latter you have to start thinking, you must start thinking about whether the man is going to preach that you buy insurance with him or if you want to join his direct sales career.
She wasn’t born to love sarcasm or man, rather wisdom gradually matures, to mature until capable to understand a lot of truth…..
The topic got sidetracked, now I am talking about Xiǎomǐ for what reason is she unable to have a relationship with Xiǎomǐ?.
Xiǎomǐ has a hundred advantages. He and Xīfān are more intimate than their relatives. They can talk about their hearts and there is no secret between them. However they are unable to developed love, the biggest reason is—Xiǎomǐ is gay, and hasn’t revealed his sexual orientation.
He was afraid that his mother would jump from the building if she became aware of the facts. Therefore he chose to let covert to love.
The second-year Xiǎomǐ worked for Xīfān he was evicted by the landlord, and her boss, who was good at squeezing people, did not give false information. He was unable to go out and find a house, without any better option he had to move his luggage to her house.
Xīfān bought a house, a two bedroom unit, plus a public-to-building ratio of about 25 square meters. The location is not in the city center but it’s close to the subway and the traffic is quite convenient.
At her age, the ability to buy a house in Taipei without the help of her parents is not ordinary, the capability is common.
Xiǎomǐ lived like this, because of their “cohabitation” and on the account of personal work, they turn into each other’s firewall.
¹meaning the other woman
²flourishing, thriving
³name of the second Qing emperor, (1654-1722)
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