Private Wife – Chapter 3.3

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Because he has no right to open his mouth, he can only choose to quietly listen attentively, but not how long? He had no idea that her eloquence was so good that she could persuade herself.

After sighing few times in a row, Xīfān said: “Compared to go dining, wining, whoring and gambling, beating his wife, selling a daughter to seek glory, big money for unfaithful marriage. The married women of the Liǔshù village are in fact not excessive, she just can’t stand life, just want to run away.”

“Think about it and to think it’s really unfair for what reason the Liǔshù Village married woman want to submerge in the pond? Elder Qián however wasn’t punish? Why does everyone ignore his hatefulness, Just paying tribute to the loyalty of Qian sǎozi? Why do men do what they want, but women must tolerate it again and again? Is the basic standard of the world unfair?”

“I really missed the 21st century, there’s no distinction between man and woman, only separate to able and unable. Men have the ability to succeed, A woman can succeed if she has the skills, women don’t make less money than men. Equality between men and women is the perception of the masses. Knowing that “the crown prince is guilty of crimes against the people” for you it’s just a slogan, But it’s a natural attitude to us……”

Chatting about the 21st century, Xīfān began talking non-stop only to leave the day, she already given birth to strong thoughts.

The man listen very seriously, even though her world is too strange for him, even if you can’t understand why women there can show their faces in public, earn their own living? He very much wants to ask, ‘What are all the men doing there? Why don’t they have the skills to take care of their women?’

“……I don’t know what the parents of Jiāng family’s wife are thinking. How to be willing to marry their daughter to the obstacles of Helen gōngzǐ, could it be that I’m right, numerous children at home, the family is late to prepare since the reproduction is strong. The speed of reproduction is fast also the home is short of rice in the pot. Is it a matter, of course, to sell a few children in order to survive?”

“But Helen gōngzǐ how dare you? dare to take hold of an unknown strange woman to put on your side? don’t tell me you are not afraid of the other side having a wicked intention, to want to murder you for money? to want to murder, if I were you I would rather live alone, and don’t want to be around strangers.”

If it wasn’t for his own actions, the man really wants to clap his hands for her, she is quite intelligent, guessing clues twice in quick succession.

That’s right because the other party “appear to have a wicked intention, to want to murder for money” otherwise how could he have befallen to this type of plight.

As she spoke, Xīfān suddenly seems to think of something and a sudden sigh, covered her mouth with both hands, staring at the man with a pair of eyes, her tone suddenly become cautious and solemn¹.

“Could it be true that the original owner of this body wants to murder to make a fortune only then meet with you while still alive you made the first move to kill? You are the one who emptied her soul, to the extent that I…… easily check-in?”

Her inference made the man’s heart tremble, ‘she actually guessed it?!’

How is it smart and wise, to be able to guess under the circumstances not to have the least bit of clues, guess it pretty close?

Hidden regret, he really wishes his eyes can see, he wants to take a look at her expression, to guess her thoughts.

The atmosphere condenses, after a long silence, Xīfān once again started to talk. “But is that really the case? I merely kick it lightly and you fell on the floor which ever made the first move is an advantage, or to say…… That foot was caught off guard, or……” she pondered for a long time.

Her guess allowed the man’s mind to begin to stir², although trying to conceal the excitement in his heart, yet he very much wants to know, to answer it “or” what is the amazing language behind?

Xīfān walk back and forth the bed one after another, it seems as if thinking deeply about something. It was a good long time to make an ironic conclusion–

“How about I try it again?”

If it were not for him to remember what “Helen” is in her mouth, he’s really going to laugh out loud, ‘try again?’

To kick him again to be able to measure if he has the ability to strike first and gain the upper hand?³. He really wants to scoff.

Retracting back the praise, she’s not as smart as he thinks he.

“First I want to make it clear, this is not bullying, it’s just a simple test, I’m very compassionate and absolutely don’t bully a deaf and dumb person.” She was explaining her conscience once again.

In fact after so much serious pondering, indeed she shouldn’t have picked up such a mindless word. Who will believe that once she was a successful career woman, once a manager level above everyone? Could it be that the process of crossing causes damage to a person’s brain?

No way, she really can’t think of other conjecture to try.

Xīfān made preparation in advance, first put the pillow on the inside of the bed, Calculate the direction of the force and estimate the angle at which he will be kicked out and finally once again put to use the no shadow kick of Fóshān^4.

The left foot stands straight, warm up for 3 seconds, The right leg stretches out and then retracts quickly. The movement is in one go in the shortest possible time.

In a flash, his body received a wave of external force from the east. He on account of “debility and deficiency of ‘QI’^5” was lacking strength to bear thus the body flies out toward the inside of the bed with a swing of ninety degrees.

“Ah Ah boo hoo……” There was a wave of protests in his mouth that Xīfān could not understand, both hands in the air waving for a short time and then hit the pillow in precision.

The test results came out, it’s her pick the belly of the nobleman, the man is not dependent on the murderer, the murderer was not Helen. Xīfān set him straight up to the side and turn towards him to apologize, “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have made such an absurd question, accusing you of murder without the strength to truss a chicken. It’s the most amusing thing is this world. Yes, I think too much, your heart is quite good and honest, your manner is quite sincere. People like you absolutely will not conspire to murder other people. I’m sorry It’s my heart that’s so evil.”

Isn’t it so, when the wind blows, it falls, he this person early to start unlikely to act strong, it’s only possible to suffer a calamity, therefore Jiāng family’s wife…… to walk on her own and carelessly slip and fall, a wisp of fragrant soul return and hate the heaven?

The man’s face was written with the word “anxious,” and she saw that he was apologetic, Anyone who gets fooled is unhappy, right? If she is able to communicate, she will probably send him a series of Three Character Classic^6.

Communication? She suddenly recalled the writing she had said in her makeshift lie.

She suddenly grabs his hand, secretly in her heart turn to heaven to pray, to beseech God to bestow him an exquisite heart, so they can do the communication in mind. So she wrote on his palm, “Are you hungry?” and wait patiently for his reaction.

Xīfān heartbeat was very fast, It feels a bit like waiting for a college entrance examination roll-call of successful candidates. She lean her head, carefully examine the movement of his face, suddenly she saw him nod after a brief hesitation

He is nodding, he is nodding!

Very good! Her eagerness, lying, and finding unexpectedly a way out for herself, the willow trees make the shade, the flowers give the light^7. The village is in front of her she wants to cheer, wants to encourage love, wants to thank heavens and even more want to ferociously bite on his face.

Can…… not, don’t be happy too soon, try it again, Maybe it’s just a blind cat running into a dead rat.

“The neighbor sent something, how about eat a little bit?” As she spoke, she practiced regular script (Chinese calligraphic style) on his hands two degrees.

This time he didn’t let her wait, without hesitation nodded.

Heavens that’s extremely wonderful! A short to no longer brief communication. Xīfān unable to restrain her happiness.

Just say it, mankind is a herd of animals, although as a single woman in the city, already used to treating loneliness as a friend, and loneliness as a lover but she still needs to confront the crowd, confront intimate comrades!

“Very good, eat!” She excitedly jumps out of bed, walks around the house, finds a wooden basin and a handkerchief, rushes to the kitchen stove side to take the water.

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¹suddenly become cautious and solemn [idiom: very carefully; prudent; gently and cautiously]
²allowed the man’s mind to begin to stir [idiom: to get restless; to become threatening]
³strike first and gain the upper hand? [idiom, martial arts term: Making the first move is an advantage.]
⁴Fóshān [Foshan prefecture-level city in Guangdong]
⁵ “QI” [The circulating life energy that in Chinese philosophy is thought to be inherent in all things; in traditional Chinese medicine the balance of negative and positive forms in the body is believed to be essential for good health.]
⁶Three Character Classic [13th-century reading primer consisting of Confucian tenets in lines of 3 characters].
⁷the willow trees make the shade, the flowers give the light [idiom: at one’s darkest hour, a glimmer of hope; light at the end of the tunnel]

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Private Wife – Chapter 3.2

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“And later? Why did you leave the house and come to our little place?”

“My husband’s parents died two years ago, elder brother wants to separate and live apart, can my husband this capable to divide what good things? Husband’s parents passed away, nobody can take responsibility for us, elder brother’s wife said we don’t have other choices but to do ourselves and even if you obtain property it’s not much, there are a few acres of land and several of paving.”

“But husband and I are worried, afraid of a few older brothers, older brother’s wife has other ideas on her mind, just in case they say they want to help us take care of our property, yet secretly invade and occupy our property. I’m a woman and husband is also like this and if something really happens, it’s impossible to go to court with my older brother and sister in law, so as a result, I talked to husband to sell off the family property and move to another place.”

“Discuss? you and your man?” Chén sǎozi’s straightforward question, isn’t he unable to see, can’t hear and can’t speak?

The other’s doubt let Xīfān discover a big bug in her words, her brain turned into two circles, anxious for a hasty cover-up.

“Yes, we can discuss it, my husband wasn’t born like this. As a child he’s smart, the body is strong and healthy, he’s a normal person. If it were not for the illness…… My husband is very smart, he read a lot of books, the master always praises him. If there is something I want to say to him so long as I write the characters on his palm he will understand.”

The story mention here, Xīfān suddenly think of, ‘oh right why didn’t she think of that maybe Helen gōngzǐ really be able to communicate with her.’

Fāng sǎozi exclaimed in admiration and said: “It’s amazing to read a book, can my Niú family come and learn a few words from you? so as not to grow up like his parents and be a blind man.”

“Well, if you have time let the children come.”

Chén sǎozi smile:“Jiāng family’s niángzǐ is a conscientious person if you marry a woman with bad intention, whose willing to stay with such a man for a lifetime? maybe as soon as the parents in law died, right away rush to grab the money and go far away.”

Lín sǎozi speaks: “How can you not keep? the marriage book is covered by the government seal, if you abandon your husband the government will arrest you also a dozen of planks to beat you will you still live?”

Fāng sǎozi also cut off and said, “You are right, there was a woman in the Liǔshù village, her family’s man is an idiot, speech is unclear, she cheated on her man and run away with a man and sweep away all valuables, village people can’t stand by idly and watch, they arrested the person back. They’ve broken the wild man’s leg and the woman was immersed in the swine cage, died.”

“We act like a woman who is ready to accept misfortunes as decreed by fate, whether you marry a pig or marry a dog, marrying a man is a lifetime affair. You talked about which family’s daughter in law in one’s mind have not been wronged? still have to swallow the bitterness, live a good life, really it’s difficult to endure can only go to the temple to worship and be sincere in heart to hope that God will give a good birth in the next life, so that I can also return as a rich young lady.” Lín sǎozi’s accepting misfortunes as decreed by fate.

The kindhearted Chén sǎozi comforted her: “Jiāng family’s niángzǐ, seriously think about it, marrying this man is not bad although his body is somewhat inconvenience, still it’s going to keep you fed and warm, marry a man, marry a man to dress and eat, this is what he did. Besides, the light permits you to know the language and to understand letters, you just don’t know you are much better than us.”

Fāng sǎozi also supported, “What I say is, don’t need to speak to other people, let us just say that one Zhao Li Zheng in our village is wretched and vulgar. He took his younger sister to the county magistrates home to be a concubine, Get a good one, think you are a fool, all day long at home beating children, wife, Zhao shěnniáng¹  face is not good for a day, is red, green, purple and swollen, everyday appearance not the same compared with Zhao Li Zheng, your family is a good home.”

“Furthermore, the village eldest Qián, to go dining, wining, whoring and gambling all kinds arrive, not to have money, not to have skills, relying on that attractive young man, still outside to womanize, he doesn’t do anything. My parents left a few acres of land to get money also take care of sister in law and son, if not for a few years ago the sister in law saved some silver by being a wet nurse in the city, now the whole family all drink the northwest wind².”

“But eldest Qián is not enough, drunk all day long, reach out sister in law’s money, this it doesn’t matter, last time he owed a gambling debt the debt collector was in front of the door, he goes so far to want to drag his unmarried daughter to repay the debt, if it were not for my mother in law to see, let my man beforehand hide the money and the daughter, now a good girl doesn’t know what a dirty place it’s been sold, alas Qián sǎozi this day do not know when to come to the end.”

Chén sǎozi answered: “Two days ago I went to see eldest Qián’s home. Qián sǎozi also say at the moment she was now counting on her children to grow up quickly. In the future, if things get too hard and want to jump in the river then she won’t have anything to worry about.”

Fāng sǎozi held the hands of Xīfān pointing to the man on the bed and said, “Therefore stand for this kind of a man, your life isn’t really bad, either. In any case, there are food to eat and clothes to wear, don’t need to be beaten, someday give birth to children, endure for a few years when you are old you have something to rely on.”

“We women, the most important thing is to accept misfortunes as decreed by fate.” Chén sǎozi finally concluded.

Xīfān nods her head, and answered: “Thank you, sisters-in-law, I know it in my heart, to live on, who doesn’t have to suffer pain.”

Next, they talk about a few more examples of “teaching and learning” to encourage xīfān to accept her fate.

She believes that after today, Jiāng family’s niángzǐ’s case also can become an encouragement to be used to advise suffering women. As it turns out that the intellectual civilization of mankind was passed down by the gossip generation.

After they worked together to teach Xīfān how to make a fire, they return to their respective work.

Shutting the door, Xīfān went back inside the room and looked at the man who got up from the time when women chatted with her. She to walk towards him sat on the bed arched two legs, and buried the aggrieved little face in her knees.

If the heaven wants a person to die, must first suffer the strength, to starve their stomach, empty their body and torment their soul…… very good heaven is on her death, did a pretty good job.

“Helen gōngzǐ, the answer is out, you and I are actually husband and wife, husband and wife nah, quite a close relationship. Other people cross to marry a prince, marry the emperor, but I run away to marry the male version of Helen Keller. How do these people teach to endure?”

“They all asked me to resign to my fate, but it cost a lifetime to take care of a multiple barrier husband, which normal woman can accomplish that? I have never been a nurse, I will not support while he or she defecates, I will not support he or her to urinate, I will just tyrannize my subordinates, To push them into a nervous breakdown and the hospital will take care of it.”

“However if you don’t accept your fate, you’ll be beaten by a plank, or be soak to a pig cage, to submerge into a dike…… the man of this world, take hold of your intelligence and wisdom even to take away woman and force to guard their chastity. If I don’t accept my fate, is it going to die again? In the event that I die here and go back to my own world, then it doesn’t matter, but what if I doesn’t? Do I have to wander between the underworld, and endure the thousand years of loneliness?”

“I don’t think that the married women in the Liǔshù Village are just trying to pursue a better future, why would it change to a notorious end?” She knew it was wrong to say that because the married women in Liǔshù village snatch people but she merely wants to vent her emotions that’s all.

The man listened to her words, he’s unable to answer her because he is, “blind, deaf and dumb.”

But her thoughts made it impossible for him to accept, Of course, the woman of Liǔshù Village is notorious the only natural to be submerged to the dike, her unfaithfulness and filthiness what she did to her husband is outrageous it makes one’s hair stand up in anger³. To be like that kind of woman it’s entirely OK to simply burn to death while alive. How can she say that the woman is good?

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¹shěnniáng [wife of father’s younger brother]
²all drink the northwest wind [idiom: cold and hungry]
³it makes one’s hair stand up in anger³ [idiom: to raise people’s hackles]

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Private Wife – Chapter 3.1

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[Chapter 3: A compilation of one’s own ridiculous talk]

Just as Xīfān fell into the coveted imagination of a male physical body, the sudden knock on the door pulled her soul back.

“Is the Jiāng family there?”

Xīfān hurriedly propped herself up and hurriedly bid farewell to the bullet muscles.

At that moment, in a trance, she heard someone…softly sighing? she suddenly bows her head and Helen gōngzǐ’s¹ baby face has no extra expression, so she heard wrong? Yeah, I guess…

“Jiāng family’s niángzǐ², I’m Lín sǎozi³ where are you?” The woman again patted the door twice.

Jiāng family’s niángzǐ? Looking for her?

Inference 3: ‘Is she Jiāng family’s person?’

Xīfān is anxious to speculate the identity of the original owner and did not find the man’s expression to loosen at this time to show regret.

Alas, It just felt really good, hope to be able to continue, unfortunately…

This is his voice, but unable to open one’s mouth, therefore can only restrain.

Xīfān quickly jumped out of bed and put on her shoes. She’s not only obsessed with cleanliness but paid attention to the image as well. This is the basic condition that a business manager should have, so in the short journey to the door, she also tidied up her hair and clothes.

Opening the door, Xīfān stretched her head to look outside.

Outside the door was a young woman in her early twenties, a young lady hair worn in a bun. The skin on the face is a little dark, there’s a mole on the side of her mouth, a pair of dark eyes smiling at her: “Jiāng family’s niángzǐ, are you still sleeping? Sorry to bother you.”

Xīfān’s sight was attracted by the “food” in the woman’s hand, although don’t quite understand what it was, but the aroma of the food urged her sensory nerves.

The friendly smile instantly climbed on her cheek, she smiled: “Not at all, I’m not sleeping, the hair is messy… just recently was in the middle of starting a fire, alas! but this firewood is always against me.”

“Well, I’ll take a look at it for you.” The woman was eager.

That’s great, although God didn’t send the river snail girl on this mundane world, the sister-in-law can also come in handy.

Xīfān secretly gave her a compliment in the bottom of her heart, plus a few words: ‘a warm-hearted good woman, God will bless you long life, children and grandchildren.’

Opening the door and welcome the “warm-hearted good woman” into the house, not far away, another woman came towards her.

This woman is slightly shorter, plump body and a round face. It looks very friendly.

“Jiāng family’s niángzǐ is good, Lín sǎozi is here too, you bring taro cakes?”

“You are right, just out of the steamer it’s still hot. Fāng sǎozi, what are you bringing here?”

“In the morning to go to the garden to pick up a few vegetables. I thought that Jiāng family’s niángzǐ just moved in yesterday. I’m afraid at home has nothing, just send some over.”

From each other’s conversation, Xīfān heard a number of information.

The woman with the mole is Lín sǎozi. The round face is Fāng sǎozi and she is Jiāng family’s niángzǐ, just moved in yesterday. When Xīfān is still establishing data in her mind, another Chén sǎozi who sent eggs came over.

Xīfān invited the three people inside the house. There’s no screen in the house, no partitioned off area, as soon as you enter the door you can see a man lying on the bed.

“Jiāng family’s niángzǐ, is your family’s xiànggong’s⁴ illness still not good?” asked Fāng sǎozi looking at the man.

‘xiànggong?! Does it mean he and she are husband and wife?! A strong earthquake struck the heart of Xīfān.’

‘Help! Her body is not yet fully developed, how could she be a married woman?’

Well, ancient people were short-lived and die fast, so you have to marry early, but pick, can also pick, at least pick an individual who can see, can be able to hear, can speak. A normal man who can walk!

The crossing is already very bad, to pass through the poor people’s home, again the first failure. If you passed through on the body of a married woman, it’s the third failure. And the married woman’s husband is still a seriously disabled… naturally failure gone all the way to hell. God, why don’t you simply just let her go to hell? Pull out your tongue, climb a knife and climb a mountain, after 18 years later she is a hero. Is it really necessary for her and Helen gōngzǐ to spend a lifetime?

She glanced at the sympathy on the faces of everyone and couldn’t help but sympathize with herself, she sighed: “Yes”

“It can’t always be like this, you a woman’s house, even if you have some silver on your body, but how long can you hold on? If you are well-off at hand, would you like to invite a doctor to see? There are a few doctors in town who are good at medicine, tomorrow my family’s man will go to town, can give you a ride if your family’s xiànggong gets better, you can live a little easier in the future.” Chén sǎozi is really planning for Xīfān.

Xīfān set to look at the several young women, they were cordial and enthusiastic. They were good-natured and kindhearted. The inclusive attitude gave her the warmth of the “outsider” that fell to hell on earth.⁵

“Thank you, I will have to trouble Chén sǎozi in the future.” Xīfān smiled with all her sincerity. This group of good neighbors is the only good news she has received since she crossed.

His smile sways the three women’s eyes. It’s beautiful, the women from the city are different, fine skin and white flesh, brows, and eyes, five senses are the same as the fairies that come out of the painting.

“Don’t mention it, there are 20 or 30 families in our village, and we don’t have much to do on weekdays, how to help.”

“Jiāng family’s niángzǐ, how did you come to our village? Yesterday when we heard that you bought the black old man’s house, we were all scared.” Fāng sǎozi raises the gossip spirit, a pair of squinting eyes two points.

“Can’t you buy this house?”

“That’s not what I’m trying to say… let’s talk about it. The black old man is stingy and greedy. More than 10 years ago, I didn’t know who told him that the fēngshuǐ⁶ of this piece of land is good, Living here is going to be a big fortune. He tried hard to buy this land from the hands of Zhào nǎinai⁷ resolutely. They want the 7 acres of land for 45 silver, but he reduces to 40 silver and also coveted Zhào nǎinai’s newly hatched chick.”

“You say, this man is not stingy and greedy.”

Even if this level is stingy and greedy? This is supposed to know how to live?

Just like herself, she has to take the plastic bag back when recycling, buying vegetables requires two onions, and the management fee is not delayed until the last day. Let alone buying real states… it’s a fool not to bargain, with this as a standard, wouldn’t she be greedy and greedy?

Well, when you enter a village, follow the local customs.⁸ She reminded herself that she has to learn to be magnanimous.

With an awkward smile, she asked, “And then what?”

“If you buy the land, of course, you have to build a house, you also know everyone helps you to build a house. You must provide everyone a meal. The black old man knows this order, but he can’t bear to spend silver, so go as far as to give everyone to drink wild herb porridge. That porridge, It’s so watery that you can’t even stand chopsticks. Everyone has an empty stomach, where’s the strength to move the bricks and roof tile? For three or five days no one will come.”

“So your house will be big but there’s no partitioned-off area. Who made him stingy? It was good enough to see the neighbor, who had not asked him for money, he is still stingy in this field, really…”

More than ten years matter, Fāng sǎozi put it this way, vivid and realistic, like the news of yesterday, it can be seen that the gossip here is very poor.

“I heard you spent 52 silvers to purchase?”

“Yes.” Where does Xīfān know if it is? It can only be intuition.

“Old house, not worth this price.”

“Do you want to let everyone help in a few days, separate the house into several rooms.?”

Xīfān forced a smile, in bed lying down is the male version of Heller Keller and she is the male version of the old black man, only just recently to climb into a long time conclusion. She guessed, probably there hasn’t half a dime in the house.

“Actually, my husband’s eyes can’t see, the legs are inconvenient and no partition room is more convenient for me to look after, this kind of set-up is what I need to be able to see anytime.”

“These spoken words are reasonable.” Fāng sǎozi said.

Xīfān turned to start a conversation and asked: “Did the black old man really made a fortune?”

“Speaking of this, God! He went to town to gamble, unexpectedly he won more than five thousand silver, he had sold the house and brought his family to the city. A few days ago my man went to town and saw him drinking wine in a small restaurant. Now he is generous, there are a full eight dishes on the table.” Chén sǎozi said.

Xīfān succeeded in taking away the previous topic but didn’t expect that Fāng sǎozi once again pull the topic back. She lowered her voice and asked in Xīfān’s ear: “Jiāng family’s niángzǐ, can your xiànggong ‘s ear able to hear?”

She sighs and shook her head helplessly.

Fāng sǎozi patted the back of Xīfān to console: “Really pitiful, your man is a noble son of a great family I presume? Then certainly a rich noble. A spread out upon this body is… How could your parents have liked this marriage in the first place?”

Is he a noble son of a big family? How did you get it? Is it because the clothes on him look expensive? or… because the flesh is more?

Along with Fāng sǎozi’s question said, the three women, at the same time six eyes shine and they are all looking forward to a wonderful story. Xīfān is able to understand, everyday facing fuel and rice, soy sauce and vinegar and tea, no fiction, no Korean drama, ancient times life is dry-as-dust. They are in desperate need of gossip to meet their spiritual demands.

This being the case so, no problem making up a story. She is the most capable of handling things.

“My parents gave birth to 8 sons and 10 daughters and there are few barren lands at home. They can’t keep that many mouths alive. A couple of my brothers signed a deed to be a permanent worker in a big family. If the daughter is not sold as a slave, she is given to someone else as a child bride. I was purchased by the Jiāng family as a child bride.”

“It’s hard to be a child bride? Are you often bullied?”

“That’s fine, father-in-law and mother-in-law are worried that no one will take care of xiànggong only to buy me to enter the official residence. My husband’s parents treated me very well, let me read and write from childhood, raise me to be like a rich young daughter. I read many books and also know a lot of principles. In one’s mind I understand we have to conduct oneself to be grateful and seeking to repay the kindness, my parents-in-law treated me like this. I can only repay their kindness by being a thousand times better to my xiànggong .”

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¹ gōngzǐ – young master
²  niángzǐ – a form of address for one’s wife; a polite form of address for a woman
³ sǎozi  – older brother’s wife; sister-in-law
⁴  xiànggong – old form of address for one’s husband
⁵ that fell to hell on earth [idiom:suffering the torments of Buddhist hell while still alive, having an uncomfortable time]
⁶ in Chinese thought a system of laws considered to govern spatial arrangement and orientation in relation to the flow of energy (chi), and whose favourable or unfavourable effects are taken into account when siting and designing buildings.)
⁷ grandmother
⁸when you enter a village, follow the local customs [idiom: do as the natives do; When in Rome, do as the Romans do]

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Private Wife – Chapter 2.2

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And so accepting her many apologies man, he slightly raise the corner of his mouth, raise his eyebrows, with a touch of interest on his face.

Woke up again, the advanced version of Helen Keller is still lying next to her and very clearly sent her a message – I’m hungry.

She heard his stomach growling as though there was nobody else present.

Xīfān wants to ignore all of this, she must have not slept long enough otherwise, ‘why the nightmare isn’t over?’

She was helpless, pulled over the quilt and sighed in a low voice: “I’m sorry, I haven’t gone back yet lend me another sleep It should be a success next time.” Her tone was a bit in vain. She didn’t even believe her own nonsense.

The man felt a slight tremor around him thus he reached out to her face. Just as he was about to touch her, Xīfān suddenly jerked to find that he had a thick layer of blood on his hand, dirt and rice grains…And so on, the dirt mixed with countless kinds of filth.

She has mysophobia¹ and her body instinct quickly shrank back.

Not able to make contact with the physical object, his hands failed and there was slight disappointment emerging on his face.

Upon seeing this, her conscience was once again condemned, and it was no longer humane to kick over a disabled person. And now she’s digging a knife into his self-esteem. ‘Hán Xīfān, you’re a bad woman!’

“I’m sorry, I’m not avoiding you it’s my problem, I have a serious obsession with cleanliness and you just have thousands of years of dirt on your hands, a century of germs.” Laughing, ‘the other person can’t hear you at all.’ She was explaining it to herself.

His hands fail to achieve something,  he’s unwilling to give up. Once again he came close in her direction. This time Xīfān’s sense of propriety and obsession with cleanliness were in conflict and the latter lost. Hence, she endured the goosebumps all over her body and barely stretched out her hand.

The next moment, he took her hand and a smile appeared on his face.

She only saw half a smiling face, she didn’t know when he tied the cloth back, but the dirty, ugly half smile made her feel brilliant. He is a man who can influence other people very much.

Lightly shaking her head, Xīfān awakens herself up and asked: “Do you like me?….No, I asked wrong, I mean, do you like the owner of my body? are you lovers or close relatives? If it’s the former, I’m sorry this body already change to a new soul. If you like it then it’s useless, you know that, don’t you? love in this area is important.”

‘Well, she’s just talking nonsense and the best thing is she’s chatting idly at an inaudible man, ha! she can write it into history the title is’, “The stupidest woman ever.”

He grabs the hand of Xīfān and pressed it on his stomach, the meaning is clear – the uncle is hungry.

‘Have you ever seen a blind man cook?’ No, so yes, if she doesn’t want to starve the person to death after hurting the person’s body and mind, in that case, she should get out of bed and feed him.

But she’d want to get some more sleep try to see if she can sleep back next to Xiǎomǐ. She has a strong sense of rejection about getting out of bed because as soon as she leaves the bed, it means she’s sober and she has no choice but to accept her fate on behalf of willing to keep living in this time and space.

But how could she admit her destiny? Her small apartment just finished paying the loan, more than 2 million worth of decoration and turn the little space into a big mansion. All the classmates are so jealous to death and the restaurant could bring her hundreds of thousands of profits every month and her salary has risen to 4 words.

Guess how much her first love’s salary? despite being abandoned, Xīfān can’t deny that Cài yǔtáng is a prophet. He was diligent in his tutoring after he was discharged from military service, studied seriously and finally admitted to civil service, after a few years of work, the salary risen to four words, both of them are four words. The difference is between 40,000 and 400,000.

So the ghost has to accept fate!

Pulling back his hands, Xīfān pretends not to discover his grievances.

Helen gōngzǐ lightly flattened his mouth, very cute bite the lower lip and once more pull her clothes.

Pulling it, no movement and then pulled it twice, thus her resistance became more powerless and turned around. She wants to try to reason with him and to tell him, “I’m really looking forward to returning back to my 21st century in the next dream.”

But he can’t hear, she looked at his grievances, alas…his beg for pity ruthlessly rammed hard against her heart… It takes a lot of perseverance to refuse people with disabilities and apparently her perseverance is going to lose a lot.

Sighing ten times, Xīfān finally gathered a mouthful of courage. She was unwilling to get out of bed, she walked to the side of the kitchen stove. The more she looks at that stove, the more shocking it is. ‘Can she cook in this thing?’

Kill her ok? Looking how big the pot is, it’s difficult just to move it out and clean it. She didn’t practice weightlifting, this is not the most difficult, the hardest part is how to get the spark light the stove. Disgraceful it is said that in front of her, she had not participated in the Boy Scouts.

Xīfān knew her complaints were boring and useless, yet she still can’t help but complain.

“Helen gōngzǐ I haven’t burned firewood in my life. May I ask, do you have a big electric pot or oven here? If you have a microwave oven, I’d like to say 100 words to you, Thank you.”

She’s talking shit again, but he doesn’t say anything about how to live, she’ll choke to death.

So say it, try to say it, anyway the words of the deaf can’t be used as evidence in court and can’t just convict her crossing you can’t put her in a woodpile for a witch to roast.!

Xīfān took a closer look at the pot fortunately, it’s clean. She doesn’t have to stand up and wash. She bent down and picked a few thin firewood to pile into the stove,  find some few sawdust and shove it in. After that the highlight came, how do you get the fire out? looking at the few suspected flint² things next to the kitchen stove, ‘and who’s going to teach her how to use flint to hit a fire?’ She stretched out her hand to hit the stone. ‘Is it going to spark because of shame?’

‘Drilling wood to get fire?’ Xīfān’s line of sight inspects the interior of the kitchen stove, looking at the few suspected flint things next to the kitchen stove. ‘Who’s going to teach her how to use flint to hit a fire?’ She stretched out her hand to hit the stone. Is it going to spark because of shame?

Groaning a lot, Xīfān is sullen looked up at the sky and asked: “Yahoo where are you? Google where are you? Is there any benevolent person who can teach me? How do I use primitive people’s tools?”

‘Heavens, is it because she’s dejected and will send a snail girl to help her cook and clean the floor?’ She knew she was talking shit again.

Xīfān was helplessly hitting the flint, as she tried the 43rd time, she began to have the desire to cry.

She Hán Xīfān is not a woman who concede easily, but this time she did not concede, she admitted that she did not have the ability to mix in such a ghost place.

Putting down the stone and walk to the bedside. She sat down beside the man dejected, and wearing a sobbing tone and said: “I’m sorry, there’s nothing I can do, in case you starve to death, can you tell Yánluó wáng³  a few fair words after you enter hell? Please tell him I didn’t mean it, I didn’t do it, rather I can’t. I heard that hell is more tolerant of people with insufficient abilities.”

Seeing the man’s faceless expression titling his head and moving his nose, looks like looking forward to the smell of food in the air. The awkward smile of Xīfān, ‘I’m sorry, she merely filled the room with a charcoal smell.’

The wrong object of his expectation fell into the world, and she was more powerless than the Helen, which couldn’t see, hear, and couldn’t speak.

“Forget it, I’m going out to get some takeaway food. I don’t want to starve you to death.” She spoke an indecent language, but such a cold joke that she could not even amuse herself.

Xīfān turned to the door and opened it, after two-step she returned back.

She’s an idiot, no matter which dynasty it was, to do one’s shopping you have to pay, so ‘where’s the money?’

She looked down at herself and recalled the plot in the costume drama.

Xīfān dug out the sleeves, none; flip the cloak, none; untie the girdle, and turn the area in a circle, and there was none. She had nothing all over her body needless to say what about the purse, even jade, gold hairpin, jade ornament… There’s nothing that can be traded.

‘What should I do now? Where’s the money?’ Xīfān looked around everywhere, she knew the opportunity is not big, but still can’t help but rummage around looking for silver.

“Where’s the money? Where’s the money?” She sounded like a broken record, and turn every place where you might put silver. Even the rat hole in the corner, she took a fine wood and dig inside. She didn’t realize the silver wasn’t coming out, contrary to what one might expect, It bothered a couple of fat rats who are having brunch. They thought it’s the earthquake, one by one flee. Xīfān jumping to the bed frightened and screaming.

If someone asks the man lying in bed at this point, whether the mouse is scary or the screaming crazy woman is scary, he would not hesitate to answer the latter.

“There are rats, there are rats…..”

Her screams shook the dust on the beams and columns and saw ash scattered over the man’s head and making him sneeze constantly. If it wasn’t for being too scared, she’s probably going to laugh.

She’s screaming, taking the man’s leg as a bamboo pole and started a bamboo pole dance. And then, for the next moment, someone’s unlucky, she smashes the calf of the disabled person really hard. The man’s intuition shrank in pain and since Xīfān was unstable causing unstable gravity and fell.

“Bang” a loud noise, he successfully retaliated against Xīfān’s animosity to bring him to the bottom of the bed. She fell too, and impartially fell into his embrace.

She knows how awkward this picture is right now. She shouldn’t have any messy thoughts, but she really wanted to say that she would not nibble at the poor helpless Helen gōngzǐ if she gets hungry and thirsty.

She’s not a man, she’s not going out just looking for someone to stop starving, love is again unfavorable, she hasn’t tasted a one-night stand, either. However… her right palm is pressed stiffly on his chest, her thighs clung above his well defined abdominal muscles, her left finger is not deliberate, however exactly as it turns out to fall on his bullet muscles…

‘How can this round, chubby underage man, have this “majestic” thing?’ what emerged on her mind was the eye-catching picture of a macho.

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¹extreme or irrational fear of dirt or contamination.
²a material used for producing a spark.
³King Yama, King of hell

 

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Private Wife – Chapter 2.1

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[CHAPTER 2:1 ‘The male version of Helen Keller¹‘]

Crossing is not the most tragic but the most tragic is after crossing. The people who stay around are not the slaves who serve their years. Not my dear parents and family, even more, is not a good man who loves his own prince rank rather a triple barrier male version of Helen Keller.

What a wicked fate! When she runs into Helen gōngzǐ² she has to rely on her logic to verify that she passed through and suddenly she was nostalgic for the kind of, “Miss, miss what happened? I am your servant girl!.” The young lady glance around her surroundings and says. “What is this place? Who are you?” evil crappy dialogue.

She also wants to pretend amnesia, ah! She also wants to wake up when there are bunch of handsome men around pampering her but why is it that it’s a crappy house, crappy table, crappy bed, crappy stove, as well as a crappy man?

She felt trapped in a maze around high walls and don’t know when there will be a big spider jumping out to chase after her.

Xīfān clasped her head in an attempt to shrink oneself into a ball and if possible she wanted to roll all the way back to modern times treating the crossing as a false fantasy after drunkenness. .

Finally twitching she suddenly stood up and shouted, “Why? what am I doing wrong? Does God want to punish me like this? I don’t want to cross, I’m quite satisfied with my life although love doesn’t exist, no man but I don’t care! I want to go back, I want to continue to be a successful career woman. To continue to oppress my subordinates to work day and night. I’m going to squeeze them out of the last drop of oil. I want to be successful. I want to become a great person in the historical record.”

She went from shouting to whispering, exhausted herself, and sat back on the bed.

The fist hit on the quilt she couldn’t understand why the protagonist in the novel would turn into a princess, a young lady, and an empress but she, however, crossed to turn into bean sprouts.?

It doesn’t matter there are no ugly women in the world, only lazy women appearance and figure can slowly change with perseverance but why the man around is not the emperor, the prince or perhaps the rich, but the male version of Helen?

Is this miserable? Is it for frustrated, helpless, and confused readers? To make them realize that there are many bright sides in their lives compared to her?

Refused! She doesn’t want this kind of crossing, she’s going to be a good person!

A sudden rise of anger, don’t know where to burn, Xīfān angrily staring at the male version of Helen, a wave of subconscious anger she instinctively stretched her feet hard to kick the man.

By the time Xīfān realized what wrongdoing she had done, he was already kicked out of bed by her.

“bang” A loud sound, the impact force sounds like it’s killing people with bricks.

Her heart was pumping, Xīfān covered her eyes, pressed her ears to imagine it wrong she covered her mouth to shut and close her eyes, she couldn’t bear her ruthlessness, covering her mouth afraid of shouting to loud, fearful exposure, pressing both ears is anxious that the other person’s roaring will break her eardrum.

However, he didn’t shout loudly as she anticipated. It occurred to her that he could not and rather than not suffer and that he could only swallow in his stomach, and that, as a mute he did not have the right to pour out grievances.

In such a thought, she felt guilty in her heart feeling apologetic.

Forgive her, this, this, this….. it’s purely a dramatic effect, the child must not learn! be kindhearted, can’t bully people with physical disabilities!

Hearing that the man on the ground moaning in pain, Xīfān quickly jumped out of bed.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry! I didn’t use a lot of strength, really, I swear by my personality I didn’t know you were going to fall. I Hán Xīfān swear to heaven from ancient times to this day, I’ve always been kind to people with disabilities. I’ve donated money to the foundation and world vision every month. I am not a bad person I have a lot of love in my heart I just can’t accept the fact of crossing at the moment, only then will not suddenly kick that foot. …..”

“I don’t have any evil intentions, absolutely! I’m purely trying to express my feelings to you. You can understand that, right? A person who lives well in the era of science and technology civilization, eat good, to wear good, take apple computer, uses iPhone, with all my orders, all my employees have to stand upright. You can imagine that life and all of a sudden crosses into this broken place….ai…”

In order to express my sad mood, as a result of kicking people innocently. Can the murderer’s arguments also use this sentence? Yes, Xīfān admits that her excuses were rubbish, so after a long sigh to make up for her conscience, fills in a sentence, “I’m sorry, I admit that I was angry, I shouldn’t have treated you this way. Sorry! in the future will not happen again, personality guarantee.”

Once again spit out a mouthful of resentment, she tried to support him to get up, however this moment, sure enough, she’s got another big new discovery the world is not the most miserable, only she is miserable, double miserable, wretched.

He is not just Helen Keller, his feet do not have enough strength to support himself, in other words, he is a strengthened version of a paralyzed Helen Keller.

Oh, my heavens, it’s a waste of a man not to take a public service advertisement to earn the tears of the audience…

Xīfān even lost her desire to die. She asked helplessly: “May I ask you, how did you survive this? Have you ever thought about killing yourself? Honestly speaking I’m not against euthanasia rather than living this way undignified and hard, It’s better to die and start over. It should be easier and more comfortable.”

She’s abetting someone else to commit suicide, right! that’s right!, exactly!

In the modern era this is a criminal act will probably be locked up for years once the evidence is presented. However in ancient times, they don’t particularly pay attention to human rights, the law doesn’t control this piece. All she violated was conscience and morality, but does it matter? should she feel guilty about it? forget about it, he can’t hear. She’s just talking about the sadness of venting inexplicably through her moodiness that’s all.

To overcome this thing, to be defeated to a man with a negative 100 points, Xīfān’s every hope turns to dust.³

She was not a nurse and she struggled to put him on the bed for a long time. Fortunately, his legs were not completely disabled. She felt that one leg has a trace of strength, however, it’s very weak.

She has never seen anyone with a disability as heavy as his body, doesn’t the limbs shrink if they don’t move for a long time? How could he be so strong?

Struggling with a force, Xīfān put the man’s body straight, pull over the quilt and cover him and at the same time she was tired from the sudden hyperkinesia.⁴ She climbed into bed and lie back next to him, taking a rest like the original posture.

Side face, she looked at the other through the unlit skylight, because the illumination is not clear, the line of sight is somewhat vague but very likely to tell although he is round and chubby, yet the facial features can be considered solid. Atleast the eyebrows are quite thick, the nose is pretty, and if you wash the dirt off the face perhaps it’s a top grade handsome guy.

He’s very tall, side by side with his head and her feet are only up to his calf, but of course, perhaps the original owner of this body is excessively short. He seems to appear tall as a result “He’s tall,” is an opinion. The accuracy is only 50%.

At this moment the headache is even more severe. She murmured to him as she rubbed her temples. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to bully you, I’m just scared by this broken house, by you and as well by this inexplicable world.”

“I don’t know if it’s commonly known as a crossover or a possession, also I don’t know who you are, this body is not mine. I came here inexplicably. Perhaps after a night’s sleep, it’s going to go inexplicably, so I don’t have to introduce myself. You just think I’m the elf who broke into time and space by mistake, so don’t mind too much.”

“Anyway, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have kicked you. It must be because my head hurts so much that my temper can’t be controlled. I drank a lot last night. Just lend me a little more sleep in this bed. Just take a moment and it’s good…” The more she said, the lower she whispered, and finally deeply fallen asleep.

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¹Helen Keller (Wikipedia)
²young master
³idiom: meaning completely disheartened
⁴ excessive movement

 

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Private Wife – Chapter 1.2

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Xiǎomǐ’s mother was under the impression that they were in a relationship, and they were out of their minds. Every day at home worshiping guānyīn, hoping Xīfān to be able to conceive accidentally and the both of them will get married, from then on his son’s life is complete.

Xīfān thought, ‘the Bodhisattva must be in a dilemma’ she couldn’t tell Xiǎomǐ’s mother: “to complete this heavy responsibility, your son must first learn not to waste sperm on other men.” Also can’t persuade Xiǎomǐ to think of a woman as an emotional option.

She covers up her sexuality for Xiǎomǐ, and Xiǎomǐ plays her boyfriend when she “has temporary needs”. What is known to be “temporary needs”?

Just like yesterday, Cài Yǔtáng got married.

The earth is not small but also not big, but it is very strange for people to run into. Some people say that it is called fate, and some people say that it is called destiny.

She never thought that after many years, Cài Yǔtáng’s brother transferred to the pharmaceutical company where she worked and became her subordinate.

Cài Yǔhuá is a young magnificent boy. Xīfān has no reason not to care for him she is even controlled by pride. In order to express her generosity and to have no grudge at heart, she took care of him everywhere. As a result, she became aware from his mouth that Cài Yǔtáng is getting married and received an invitation.

When Cài Yǔhuá handed the invitation to her he said: “Eldest brother said Xīfān is a very important woman in his life, if we’re not for the support of Xīfān maybe he can’t even graduate from college. Eldest brother wishes to obtain your blessing”.

This sentence made her feel particularly sarcastic. ‘She’s a very important woman in his life. But not the most important woman, right?’ He obtained love from her, obtained wholeheartedly, and yet she was treated like a garbage and still wants to get her blessing? Is he too naïve or too greedy?

The number of OS in her mind is numerous, and yet her pride in not willing to admit defeat finally decided to attend the wedding reception.

In order to give the impression that she was not sad and even deliberately showing that life is better than him, she spent money on the whole body maintenance, spend three hours to put on make-up. And then wear expensive Chanel clothes, with a tailored fit, to display one’s figure and to obtain a great advantage. Xiǎomǐ saw and even mistakenly thinking she wants to seduce the groom and then wreck the wedding ceremony.

She didn’t intend to, but her looks and graceful manner, she did attract more than half of the men’s eyes.

Cài Yǔtáng is a humorous man. He joked: “At that time I was young and ignorant, now I know what I miss”.

She showed a perfect smile, alienated and politely said: “You and the bride are suited for each other.”

When she said this sentence, she deliberately raised her chin and she visited the bride intentionally and she told herself: “Hán Xīfān, you won!”

This is a perfect performance, if the wedding banquet is a battlefield, she long ago seize a total victory but she is not at all happy.

Why? she ought to be proud of oneself, she is like a proud queen patrolling the battlefield. She gained the envy of countless men and women, but…so what? Like a bird sticking to Cài Yǔtáng besides the giggles and happiness, is the bride, not her Han Xīfān.

At the moment, she clearly saw herself alone from the eyes of Cài Yǔtáng.

Leaving the wedding banquet she went to the bar to get drunk, the many years of social interaction and she have strong liquor tolerance, besides there was Xiǎomǐ at her side she had the guts to drink openly.

No, she remembered Xiǎomǐ’s mother blood pressure was high and was sent to the emergency room, before Xiǎomǐ left he constantly warned her by all means not to drink too much, and important to remember to call a taxi home.

That’s right, Xiǎomǐ’s not here she should be restrained, but last night…….

A headache was so severe her ears were buzzing and screaming, such as countless honeybees were existing in her head making her unable to stand to hold her fist and to knock her head. Xīfān tried to remember what happened last night, however, the result was not good once again she knocks her head a few more times squeeze her eyebrows and twitch her mouth, atlas some fragments of pictures flashed on her mind.

Xiǎomǐ left, his father called him off.

She reminded herself that she must be moderate that Xiǎomǐ can’t drive while intoxicated, but her mind is empty. Like someone who has been digging through, feeling quite uncomfortable, like there is someone who poured into her chest a bowl called loneliness, to be strong corrosive thick soup to let her rough eye, rough mouth, difficult to understand one’s lifetime.

She likes sweets and not like the bitter flavor, therefore she doused the bitter taste with a cup of strong alcohol.

Is she pouring too hard? she was lying on the bar, start smiling at everyone, raising a toast to everyone. After that….there is none after that…

A burst of cold chestnut suddenly passes through the bottom of her heart. Xīfān all over became quick-witted, completely awake!

Although her head and throat still ache, yet she must be quick to figure where she is.

rubbing her eyes, the sky just barely dawns the light in the room is somewhat dim, and she opened her eyes to look all around.

this room…….mud house?

This type of house can we be able to find in Taipei? This type of house can only be found in the Palace Museum, in the Forbidden City?

wrong, the Forbidden City, it ought to be the Chinese culture city.

The floor of the house is made of mud and brick with a thick layer of dust almost covering its original appearance. The house was wide, but the furniture was rough and shabby.

In the middle of the room there exist a square table, four long wooden benches. The workmanship was primitive incapable to visualize, on the left side of the wall exist a big cupboard the bed is also made of clay, a large one. there exist a trunk on the bedside. It’s the only furniture in the room that you can see.

‘To sleep in this mud bed till dawn, how can bones not be broken? last night…..what happened in the end? why would she wake up here? a bad feeling arises in her heart. No way, did she died?’

‘it won’t do, she has to check. How can she use a one-night stand to bless her first love? Impossible, just one night the sadness of loneliness forced her to evolve rapidly and to become a new age food and drink for men and women?’

Narrowing her eyes, she is staring at the front house there was a window a slight light penetrated through the window to come in and saw a platform, next to the platform is……what is that? heavens! it’s that the ancient women cooking stove? old pot and crappy bowl, broken wooden ladle, in addition, two, three large water jar as well as…..that thing may be called a cupboard?

She took a hard breath, puzzled and didn’t know where she was, suddenly, Her gaze was instantly fixed to the man on the other side.

He is not a man….NO, the correct way to say is “modern man”

His hair is worn in a bun like a man in ancient costume, dress in an

Private Wife – Chapter 1.1

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[CHAPTER 1:Beautiful woman to turn into a village girl]

So cold, Han Xifan curled herself into a ripe shrimp shape, her hands are rubbing between her two arms, she has a terrible headache, her throat was sore and she blamed it for drinking too much last night. She was exploring her hand, at one side she touches to the east, then touch to the west, however she felt wasn’t a soft mattress or silk quilt……floor?

She slightly opened her eyes, no way, drunk so badly? to one’s surprise sleeping on the floor, no wonder it feels cold.

Grabbing the hair and climbing on the bed, Xifan whispered to the man on the bed: “Xiǎomǐ go to sleep a little bit.”

Seeing a man sleeping unconsciously and hasn’t reacted, she couldn’t help but think ‘was he drunk too? ugh., pouring a cup of sorrow is not a good way, not clean, instead to have a headache and sore throat.’

She rolled over from the outside of the bed and turned over on the body of a man, she was lying on the wall, and have not forgotten to draw out the quilt from the man, and hiding oneself in.

So cold, the alcohol took a lot of heat from her, fortunately, Xiǎomǐ’s body is very hot she shifts twice her skin sticks to his body also her hands and feet across his chest and waist, temperature automatic control, indeed it’s so comfortable.

She didn’t realize that the man’s body muscles were getting tense, and there was slight noise on the knuckles.

“Xiǎomǐ’……you are indeed nice and warm…”

Just a little closer her cheeks are on his neck. Xīfān is relaxed to assume and getting more sleep for tomorrow is the beginning of another day. Have the right to sleep and wake up naturally.

Xiǎomǐ is not her boyfriend rather her roommate and assistant. He’s very handsome, is 180 cm tall, fair and skin clean, looks refined, the colleague in the restaurant is always chasing after his figure. Xiǎomǐ is diligent willing to learn, a workaholic rarely seen in a younger generation.

She is as old as Xiǎomǐ….No, she is a month and 13 days older than him. As a result, she always forces him to call her “sister”.

But Xiǎomǐ detested calling her sister, everytime she uses her boss identity to force him, he calls her “cold porridge”, Hán Xīfān, cold rice, just like cold porridge.

Actually, this nickname is damn suitable for her, cold porridge….uh-huh, with regards to man, indeed she really is.

Someone once asked her, “Xiǎomǐ gets tired of being with you every day, the circumstances are not bad, for what reason for you not to love him? isn’t it because he is your employee, you can’t see it?”

‘Who have the rights to look down upon who?’ Xiǎomǐ attended the French blue ribbon catering school, much more powerful than the boss of her.

However it’s not because of this reason, that’s why she can’t be with Xiǎomǐ. Why can you sleep in the same bed, to get along 24 hours a day, unable to be a boyfriend and girlfriend?

Is it because she is cold? Is she a lesbian? or perhaps she’s having trouble with love?

Love is a challenging illness…..perhaps right?

She dated her first boyfriend, Cài Yǔtáng for 7 years, three years in high school and four years in college, she was under the impression that both of them will possibly walk into marriage.

After graduating from college, He went to serve in the army and she started to work, everyone says that love is the worst fear of xiǎosān and bīngbiàn¹. As expected I am afraid of what is coming, others mutiny is that their girlfriend run away and yet they are opposite.

During her first visit from the army, she went to see him with his family, she originally planned to prank him and say “What do you do, you’re going to be a father” wanted to see how he reacts, didn’t expect that he will take a quick step–

“Xīfān, let’s break-up, you’re too competent, you absolutely will become a successful woman in the future and I’ll probably be a little civil servant and our worlds will gradually get further apart”.

She froze for a moment, smiled and answered, “today is not April fools day”.

Suddenly, the atmosphere was awkward to the extreme.

Her eyes swept, she finds Cài’s father, Cài’s mother, Cài’s younger sister, Cài’s younger brother face appear ashamed and compassionate, it dawned on her as it turns out this is not a joke it was his sincere deliberation and his family already knew he wanted to break up.

Xīfān thought she would cry, but she did not, arrogance forces her to use the professional tone to her client to say: “since you already made your decision, so that’s it, next time we meet I’ll invite you to a meal.”

She’s was trying to make a deal, not a good one. And after that turned around and walk away, she walked while counting her pace with a lucky thought he would go to the first few steps to catch up from behind himself after holding her, turn around and will say laughingly: “baby you’re scared right?”

But she walked all the way 100 steps, two hundred steps, from the army camp to the outside of the army camp far away he can’t catch up and yet he never came after her.

I don’t know if Cài Yǔtáng’s observation is sharp, or because his words shook up her unyielding nature, then she really became a strong woman.

She worked twelve to sixteen hours a day at the age of twenty-five to become the business manager of a large pharmaceutical factory. She received more than three million bonus year-end dividends, she didn’t quit her job, but at the age of 26 she opened a restaurant, originally the restaurant is small, the location is also ordinary, employees together with herself is five people, but gradually, business becoming more prosperous with each passing day, rented the next door shop to expand the operation, now the current employees are 20. Xiǎomǐ is a good assistant precisely took her place to manage the restaurant – this is an agreement.

After Cài yǔtáng, she has had a few boyfriends but the time of the relationship is getting shorter and shorter. The second two years, the third one year, the fourth even six months have not lasted.

When a man breaks up with her he always says to her, “You are too competent, too clever, you often make me feel inferior”,“there is no possibility that I am not your brother, when you are a strong man”,“you have the foresight to expose into my lies”, “you make me feel insecure”, “you are so sharp”, “you let me feel afraid”….

She has to question herself. The question is whether she’s “smart and capable” or “the man is cheating on her back, she can always detect?”, If a woman wants to maintain a relationship, she can’t wait until marriage to turn a blind eye, but to be reasonably ignorant of a man’s wrong behavior before marriage.?, Whether she should not be excessively clean about love…..

Countless times she began to doubt her own personality let her start to feel inferior ashamed, self-denial.

She asked herself, ‘What does love bring to people?, Why does everyone expect happiness in love? But it’s often painful. Suppose that the end of all love is a tragedy, why permit this scene to begin with.’

Growing older, Xīfān slowly realized, that it’s not anyone’s fault, rather it is people who expect too much from love.

When people are afraid of commitment, scared of investing when they are happy to be loved by the opposite sex at the same time. When they have a strong sense of rejection and fear of the word monotonous, the truth this kind of thing just like to pass through, I’ve heard many people, however, no one experienced it.

This is the era of Chāngmíng², the results of the development of civilization, the information is convenient and fast. Modern people who have a strong demand for fast food culture, of course, the situation that happens. It’s not anybody’s fault,  love requires time to slowly cultivate, to brew, to ferment, it requires time to break into two different souls. And time is the most expensive capital that modern people cannot afford. Therefore love has already become a luxury.

Sometimes Xīfān gets together with a couple of good friends, she says: “To test whether a man is responsible, he will know the answer once you slept with him once.”

Because in the morning, the woman with the residual makeup frighten the man to break the table?

No, it is when a man finds out that his younger brother has made another night in the hole, which can make a woman understand, what is the definition of a man’s sense of responsibility?

He wakes up beside you, gets dressed with the lightest action, the smallest movement left, so this sort of “The flowers and leaves are not stained”, men looking for love and responsibility, is tantamount to looking for a mobile phone on the portrait of Kāngxī³, is purely impossible.

If he stays, it depends on whether he prepares breakfast for you, prepares for the next round of war, or thoughtful waiting for you to wake up and whisper warm words in your ear.

To assume the former he says he was quite satisfied with your performance last night, for a restaurant with a bad reputation, men will not mind twice to visit. In the case of the latter…do, this represents true love?

Ha!, don’t be naive! If the latter you have to start thinking, you must start thinking about whether the man is going to preach that you buy insurance with him or if you want to join his direct sales career.

She wasn’t born to love sarcasm or man, rather wisdom gradually matures, to mature until capable to understand a lot of truth…..

The topic got sidetracked, now I am talking about Xiǎomǐ for what reason is she unable to have a relationship with Xiǎomǐ?.

Xiǎomǐ has a hundred advantages. He and Xīfān are more intimate than their relatives. They can talk about their hearts and there is no secret between them. However they are unable to developed love, the biggest reason is—Xiǎomǐ is gay, and hasn’t revealed his sexual orientation.

He was afraid that his mother would jump from the building if she became aware of the facts. Therefore he chose to let covert to love.

The second-year Xiǎomǐ worked for Xīfān he was evicted by the landlord, and her boss, who was good at squeezing people, did not give false information. He was unable to go out and find a house, without any better option he had to move his luggage to her house.

Xīfān bought a house, a two bedroom unit, plus a public-to-building ratio of about 25 square meters. The location is not in the city center but it’s close to the subway and the traffic is quite convenient.

At her age, the ability to buy a house in Taipei without the help of her parents is not ordinary, the capability is common.

Xiǎomǐ lived like this, because of their “cohabitation” and on the account of personal work, they turn into each other’s firewall.

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¹meaning the other woman
²flourishing, thriving
³name of the second Qing emperor, (1654-1722)

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